Taurus Partial Lunar Eclipse
Taurus Partial Lunar Eclipse (Full Moon) on October 28, 2023 @ 2:24pm MST, with energies perfecting at 05degrees Taurus
Morning sky Chakras with Moon from the Sky, Calgary Airport, Alberta
Photo: Katherine Jonsson
One of the things that jumped out at me about this Moon phase was the Moon phase we experienced 6 months ago during the Penumbral Lunar Eclipse in Scorpio on May 5. The Lunar North Node was positioned at 04degrees Taurus. That eludes us to the opportunity to revisit that pervious energy and bring in more of that message we may have missed or not have been fully capable of taking in. I would also encourage you to revisit journal notes, daily planners, calendars to help shape what was going on for you back then to trigger expanded awareness of this moment.
This is the last eclipsing moon on the Taurus North Node for 18.5 ish years. The cycle will come back around. We have picked up many learnings, nudges, healings, and notes along the way. As always the sky shows us to keep moving on through our circles of life, don’t get stuck in an energy because you are used to it, and/ or maybe even like it. You gotta keep going.
With the Lunar Nodes well into the Aries Libra axis (@ 24degrees currently) we receive the memo of the transition, that not everything is a black and white; hard and fast; this or that as we experienced in the Taurus Scorpio axis. Transitions, like moving can have us going back into the previous moment we are ultimately about to leave, checking the cupboards while asking ourselves: “did I miss anything, do I need to take it with me, is there really room for it in my future?”
Grandmother Moon, please help me understand the energy around me and within me as I work to remove what blocks me from my real self in this Full Moon in Taurus.
Being that we are in a state of transition, as change being the only constant in our lives, I can see the emerging themes around individuality and harmony are sometimes built from a place of greed, or rather a place of lack.
Greed comes forward in an interesting way within the Taurus Scorpio axis. Consumption, the want to possess more and desires for excess are just some of the ways we are really talking about greed. Greed is ultimately the want for more when you already have enough. So what is enough? Does it mean doing more? Making the next profit margin? Reaching for the next savings goal? What is the void you keep trying to fill even when you are overflowing in that area of your life?
In “Your Money or Your Life” by Vicki Robin, who discusses “Enough” as a function of meeting your needs, plus a little extra. What I understood from that was: what do I need to survive? What are those baselines? And- what does a little extra look like for me so I can thrive? I am totally open to the reality that I misunderstood what the author had intended, though my understanding has served me well thus far.
When I am able to articulate what I need, what I need to survive, and then from there look at thriving, I land on enough. I no longer feel this place of lack where I clammer for more and more. That feeling of needing another thing or the sensation of grasping for more leaves me, and ultimately the need to be greedy.
How does Greed affect our ability to be in Harmony? Honestly I have no idea at this time. Where I have currently landed is in the realm of releasing emotional addictions I have around what I falsely believed was in the name of living harmoniously. That is some intense Scorpionic language. What this belief system allowed me to emotionally avoid is more intense. When I act in ways that I have believed would create harmony, I am actually avoiding how I would truly respond in those situations- therefore not being my real soulful self. This type of living leaves me to feeling so drained and not in my body that I then engage in starvation tactics or tactics that help me refill this sense of lack I have going on in me- the emotional greed sets in of needing more from outside myself because I have nothing left in me for me.
So far I have been becoming aware of examples of this false sense of harmony, how it plays out in my life. Holding pause for where the originating events came from.
Some examples: (to keep this super practical in the Taurus way):
False harmony for me was giving into to others so that they do not have to experience an upsetting or disappointed emotional responses. Example: saying no to their ideal booking of an appointment as that white space does not exist in my calendar.
False harmony for me looks like people pleasing and appeasing, saying yes to accommodate or to meet obligations, creating moments and actions so that they get what they want from me. Again so they do not have to experience upset or disappointment from me. Example: leaving the house to “do” something or meet someone when I personally have no battery/energy to leave the house. And not being able to say “No I cant right now” as the authentic soulful response.
False harmony looks like self effacing comments and pulls downs of myself so the other can feel better about themselves when I am around them. I do not know that this really needs specific examples, reflecting on a variety of conversation where you would find yourself responding with possibly either a competitive, guilt/shame, or comparative phrases where you look back and wonder why you said that.
Since we are in eclipse energy, I look to keep this about the pull of the Lunar Nodes. That feels more accurate as I look at how these actions and beliefs have effected my path and direction in life. I can ask question of myself like:
If I wasn’t needy, greedy, feeling a sense of lack and hungry for more in this area of my life- what would I really do with my time and resources? How would I really respond? How would I really talk about myself to myself and others?
What would acting in real harmony look like in this area of my life? What would coming from a place of not giving/ expending/ spending more than I have to the other look like as I move through my life?
What does enough feel like in this area of my life? What does that even mean to me, how would I live if I wasn’t so hungry for more all the time?
A practical example and physical manifestation of some of these question is over achievement, or the over achieving character qualities that can exist in just about every area of our lives. From the perspective of survival I can see how my past actions caused me to work more then I wanted to, spending more than I had to meet needs that I wasn’t being true or observant of at the time. All to reach accolades and applause that ultimately felt meaningless and vapid, creating a sense of harmony around me that I thought I wanted.
I feel it’s deeply interesting that I am about to reference yet another personal finance author, Remit Sethi, who has created a dialogue and social platform around what it means to have a rich life. In his body of work he describes and encourages functioning conversations around what it means for you personally to have enough. He works to break down myths around the reality that a rich life literally means something different for everyone- talk about inclusive harmony.
Money makes for a practical way of evaluating and manifesting our sense of enough and our self worth in general. And what I like about the authors that I am referring to is that they do not dictate what enough means to each person, no shaming on savings goals, no shaming on what you spend your energy/money on, just genuine questions on helping guide us through the process of defining and articulating the flow of our resources in a real way. In closing, bringing this back to the astrology we started with, this is all very Taurus driven conversations. Recovering our sense of worth, how we possess and live our own lives under pins the very sense of pleasure the symbol of Taurus seeks to live by. Living a rich life of love, harmony and meaning is something the Taurus in all of us deeply treasures and wants to cultivate more of.
Now that is a life path I can certainly get behind,
Stephany