Libra Annular Solar Eclipse
Libra Annular Solar Eclipse (New Moon) on Oct 14, 2023 at 11:55am MST, with energies perfecting at 21degrees Libra.
With this Solar Eclipse phase with have the Libra South Node tightly conjunct the Moon and Sun at 24degrees Libra. Lunar South Node is about where we have already been, what we have mastered in relationships with ourselves, others and the world around us. We then have to take all of that and integrate it forward to the pull of the North Node. We can be resistive to this pull of our life path. The more we resist- the more we can realize this is the direction we really need to be going in. This can be some of those moments in life where we realize that comfort with our life path maybe an indicator that we have fallen into the traps of the South Node- we know the drill, we know what flow feels like, being comfortable with what to expect next feelings. When I work with North and South Node energy- it seems that moving towards the North Node feels like you have no idea where you are going, but it feels completely right for you. There are no comfortable feelings of knowing the ‘drill’ or whats next, you have no idea- and it all feels good. Based on the average life span of 84years we go through we complete Nodal cycles approx. 4.5 times while on Earth. We feel this pull of the unknown through all the Astrological signs as a North Node 4.5 times. In this moment our pull forward is through Aries, then next is Pisces. For now we are being asked to integrate and loosen our grips on the pulls we had when North Node was in Libra 9 years ago. Maybe this is your Birth placement axis where you came into this world mastering the integration of South Node Libra towards the North Node of Aries. I prefer the phrase of integration as the lessons of life push away from what we do not want towards what we do want, what helped us survive previous experiences that now prevent us from thriving in new experiences, allowing us to heal those older versions of ourselves from the actions we took while we were doing the best we could in those past moments.
On the other side of this conjunction we have Mercury at 17degrees Libra, also indicating that we are going to have to communicate in order to release and movement this energy up and out. This could be be expressed by journaling quietly alone, or chatting with others around us. However connect and communicate with yourself best- do that. If you feel called to try something new regarding communication, try it! The key for us is to move the energy to deepen and expand our relationship with ourselves and others, leaving us to make space for a new aspect to come forward with the Lunar North Node in Aries.
This brings us to the level of deep healing coming forward with the Lunar North Node in Aries being conjunct with Chiron- who is in a tight opposition with Mercury at this time. We have had Chiron in Aries for a number of years now, so the themes coming forward here for you are not new in your Aries area of your chart, though in this moment they are deeply heightened with the added Mercurial energy. These areas are specific to you in terms of where Aries lives in your chart. The point is to visit/revisit these themes again to help heal your Aries identity injuries as part of your path forward.
We also have to the Lunar Nodes a less tight but still felt square (creative tension) with Pluto in Capricorn- who recently just stationed direct from retrograde on Oct 11 at 27degrees Capricorn. So in that Plutonic stillness we receive the unusually gentle nudge from Pluto that this type of healing and movement we are coming into has that death-y feeling of letting go so that the the re-birthing and re-building of ourselves can come forward (which can be a bit unknown as we move to rediscover ourselves through the Aries North Node).
Last Moon phases we had very little added energy connecting with the Full Moon in Aries, that gave us a chance to hold some space for themes coming forward. It also gave us a chance to be with the energetic axis of Aries and Libra first before being faced with the intensity of the Eclipse.
Grandmother Moon, please help me understand the energy around me and within me as I work to remove what blocks me from my real self in this New Moon in Libra.
“What am I doing here?
My ears are exhausted from hearing of others needs over my own. My eyes are tired from seeing whats going on with them. Just that all my senses are tired from being tuned in, that I come home and just tune out from myself. Separating me away from myself. I wake up frustrated. Having nothing left for me, and who is that? Who does she feel like? I haven’t had the energy in a while to feel about me, maybe this is the nudge to just feel feel me first and you second. Don’t get me wrong- “I love you. And I miss me more.”
Thats the discourse and the contention I have going into the feelings: I don’t want to loose you while I rediscover or discover me in the first place and a deeper sense of who I am.
This feels extreme to write down, and share. But I can’t ask the question and reject to the answer. My training on intuition tells me to go with what is coming forward- and be brave to share it. To lean in and have the courage to assess how this is being expressed in my life. In this moment, you are likewise asked to assess how this all feels for you.
At some point in our healing and movement through life we realize how much we do for others, tune into others, be there for them. At some point it also feels like some kind of spiritual bypassing that does not include the whole of me when I interact with you- the other. There are so many belief systems driving this behaviour that need to be released for the truth of it all to come forward, for the All of me to come forward.
Thank goodness for textbooks- I had to fact check what is coming forward. These are deep issues found in the Aries-Libra axis. When we sacrifice ourselves in support of the others in our immediate environment- their success in whatever they are doing ensures that we survive, that they will continue to take care of us in one form or another. These survival based behaviours prevent us from allowing ourselves to unfold and come forward. They deny the developing our identity and our personal ways of being. These actions for survival are exhausting, no wonder i am tired. I have an overdeveloped sense of relating to others over myself, this pattern needs a shift.
The longer I feel into this, the deeper an understanding of this sense of unfairness and unjust world we live in becomes clearer- a Libra theme. For example, in my meditation I had this feeling of being a “wrong doer” come forward- I really wanted to push that feeling away. But after remembering that this challenging feeling is here because of the many strange ways I do feel like I am doing things wrong. So as I stayed with it what came forward and it was this reality of self sabotage I created for myself unconsciously. Every time I placate to someone’s or my own emotional avoidance- I do wrong. Every time I do not give myself space to feel how I feel in every situation- I do wrong. Every time I do not take the personal risk and act on my desires, as I am still sorting our which are loving and true verses facade desires- I do wrong. These wrongs impact you and me. This sadly involves our relationships and how we show up in relationship also allows those we surround ourselves to also show up authentically.
It did not take me long to come around to the feeling of desire for change in my life. The deep wanting of not wanting to wonder what I am doing here, but the wonder of how to make my being here better, more open for love, joy and bliss. The desire to engage all my senses, having this exhaustion be nothing of a distant memory that I only recall when I encounter others finding themselves in this place, using this memory to help guide them through.
So even though we have the New Moon Solar Eclipse in Libra- notice how I am largely discussing myself, The “I” of Aries, this is the North Node pull. The putting of myself, the individual, first as to gain an understanding of how I impact you, my other, my Libra on this axis. When I check on myself first, I see you more clearly. The world around around us can heal a little deeper in this way. The communication channels in all of the layers and ways are freer to move. We also leave behind those older survival based versions of ourselves to develop who we really are and freely thrive in the beautiful world we live in.
Morning Sky Chakras of Sun in Libra, Rocky View County, Alberta.
Photo: Stephany Smith
When I heal me, I love you better,
Stephany