Pisces Full Moon
Full Moon in Pisces, Sept 10, 2022 @3:59am MDT; with energies perfecting at 17degrees Pisces
Moon and Jupiter dance together.
Photo: Stephany Steele
Grandmother Moon, please share with me an aspect of my relationship within my soul that needs to become more aware during Full Moon in Pisces and the Sun In Virgo?
We have made the feminine a slave and servant to the masculine. Through our demand of progress and success for materialistic gain. Our demands to feel proactive and producing in order to receive approval and acceptance.
So when does that leave room for the feminine to receive? To be reflective?
At this point in me- never. My addiction to remaining busy, my workaholic overdrive. Busy at involving myself in other’s business. Busy at avoiding spending time with myself, being reflective. Busy engaging in actions I was taught in what meant to be of service. The Virgo-Pisces axis is about materializing our acts of service to spirit and to the earth plane.
Instead of being in service, I was taught about the subtle forms of slavery and servitude.
This is all very confronting for me to write about. But as I wake up to what I feel is going on around me, remaining silent no longer seems like an option. I do not agree with how and what I was taught about being in service.
So far I understand that im deeply troubled by whats going on around me. I reflect on my actions in the world and have started to wonder why I feel so empty. In the past I would reflect on how good it feels. How good it feels to receive money and praise for a job well done. I felt accepted. I felt loved. I felt needed. I felt wanted. To add to that list now: I feel a servant responding to demands and expectations. I feel a slave to the money the comes to me. I feel hooked into patterns of receiving money because without them how will I eat? How will I survive, never mind learning to thrive in this life.
The tension of this moon being in aspect to the Lunar Nodes, feels all to real. All summer I have been noticing this tension, the repeatable patterns expressing themselves are far too obvious to remain ignorant to them. Exposing my hurting soul, that I no longer can be ignorant of.
I am a feminine being. That is how I was designed. Men have feminine characteristics in them as well, as I have masculine characteristics in me. I remind my thoughts of that, as I look to the world for more information as to how we have made the feminine a slave to the particharical service of capitalism- and in my opinion a false sense of masculine. For what gain? that answer I do not know. Though what I do know is the expression of the masculine we wish to blame this all on is from a very damaged and hurt place in us. That to condemn the men and the masculine keeps us held in our avoidance and commiseration tactics that no longer (if they ever have) serve us.
I herd once that mutable signs such as Pisces and Virgo are about being in service to spirit, to others. I had to ponder for a while on the Neptunian in Pisces influence on this: how am I in disillusion to being in service. And now here, in these words is where I found myself.
It seems inherent we all want to be in service to those around us. We wish to give in a way that fills our souls with love. But it also seems we have become captive to a much darker version of the service we share with others. It is on this Moon I pray to understand more, so that I can make better informed choices of how I move forward in my life. I wish to give to others, though not when it feels like this.
With a warm heart,
Stephany