Partial Solar Eclipse in Scorpio

Partial Solar Eclipse a Scorpio New Moon on Oct 25, 2022@ 4:49 am MST, with energies perfecting at 02 degrees Scorpio.

This moon is also conjunct Venus in Scorpio.

This is considered a partial eclipse because of the wide orb of the Lunar nodes. The Moon and Sun are 11 degrees away from the South Lunar Node.

Grandmother moon, please share with me an aspect of my relationship within my soul that needs to become more aware during New Moon in Scorpio?

What is this worth to me?

What is living in these intense situations worth to me?

Am I so numb on intensity that I now call this normal?

What is living in the shadows of knowing everyone else’s value over my own?

What does involving myself in other’s desires and dreams get me?

When do I make time to make my dreams and desires matter?

When do I make space for me to matter?

Im starting to feel my definition of abundance needs reworking.

Im recognizing Im so tired, I wonder how much of this life I live is based on manufactured intensity so I feel normal inside.

I wonder how much of my expression of Scorpio is a result of someone else’s projections. I wonder about this in the way that my behaviours are really coping mechanisms that I mistook all these years for personality. That my Scorpion personality is still laying dormant on the watery floor, waiting for my to fish it up to the surface.

Maybe that is what it means to make this adventure worth my while to myself. To bring forward an abundance I have yet to come to understand.

Maybe to feel about it all from another vantage point: what am I loosing?

Is it my health? My vitality? My relationships? Happy about happiness? Is the archetype of Scorpio really all about misery, depression, emotional darkness? Am I truly loosing out on happiness and joy if I stay here?

What are these losses worth to me?
I wonder what this dark brooding archetype could be in other ways:

Intense about love and desire?

When I feel my own value I desire to help you see yours?

I have more questions than insights and answers.

I feel the added energy of Venus in Scorpio, our obsessions with dark beauty, ride or die love patterns, seeing beauty in chaos and destruction (so I wonder if we create chaos and destruction like war and environmental damage so we can see the beauty in it). Is a Scorpion Venus really all that dark with all those obsessions and intensities, or did we just take her essence to mean those things?

What if in this New Moon we are illuminating our Sun’s involvement in Moon’s lineage patterns? And now in meeting with Venus as well we are meeting how what we thought was beautiful is really damaging. Death is a transformation, a movement and letting go of one form. Literally we can physically cast off our earth body and be left with our spirit and soul body, and at point in our loving development we would then cast off our spirit body and only be left with our soul. Imaging down this mental track to remind myself of my faith in my excitement off developing my soul senses in love and truth from god’s perspective. In that requires death of the facade selves we used for survival, but cannot thrive from within our soul; requires the death of our addictions and obsessions that aid us in avoiding our real emotions at all costs; the death of our anger that we think we are justified about; the death of our fears- there is no love where fear lives, even the little fears; the death of our suffering; the death of choosing to live in disharmony with god’s perspective of love and truth; the death of our demoralizing ways; the death of our unethical ways; the death of what I think love to be; the death of what I think about sex and that its a gift of my womanhood I’m not obligated to give my partner; the death of what I feel I’m responsible for; the death of my sense of shame, that I just feel shameful for being a woman, that I feel dirty for having to bleed out so I can cleanse for a future possible pregnancy- just for the idea of it, not even that it is my desire, but likely my survival duty. Death of how I feel like I’m living in a war zone, the death of the jacked up nervous system

What’s not dying of these things worth to me?

I have so many questions because they inspire me to face the unknown. I have no insights for the future because all I know is what I’m dying from in this moment.

Whats under there? As my intention states- my real self, that soulful being with real desires that god’s laws won’t try and break down because they are in disharmony with those laws, but rather to rally for these desires and help them be expressed and built up on. I have to go through a lot of death to get there. My prayer is to one day write about a glimpse of a Scorpio who wasn’t all about the ecstasy of death- the excitement of leaving behind all these false beliefs we claim are loving ways to live, the excitement of no longer making a dying.

Through the snow fall, one tree remains golden. Calgary, Alberta
Photo: Stephany Steele 

In the death of it, what will you no longer do?

Stephany