Aries Full Moon
Aries Full Moon, October 9, 2022 at 2:54pm MDT, with energies perfecting at 16degrees Aries
Moon Dancing with Jupiter in the East after Moonrise, Calgary Alberta.
Photo: Stephany Steele
Grandmother Moon, please share with me an aspect of my relationship within my soul that needs to become more aware during Full Moon in Aries and the Sun in Libra?
We have been here before. It may have been months ago, but we were here. This is nothing new. Only deeper. Deeper into the layers of our healing, inching closer to exposing the errors that block the movement from within our soul.
In this astrological perspective the question around vision arises. Vision in the form of our dreams, wishes, the ones that map our movement forward.
But I start with wondering what happens if we have no vision or dreams in our minds, our heart’s eye? The warroir Aries carries on forward without question then of the Other’s visions and goals, sometimes without question of how this all feels within.
In this storyline there is usually a moment where the warrior takes a moment, to break from the world she or he is engaged in and questions the other’s command. Tension builds as the other is exposed for leading on this warrior who until that moment did exactly as they were told. There is a friction in that. A certain amount of pain is exacted for not having your own vision of how you move through your life. In the pain and agony of this raw personal truth, one must accept they allowed this because they had no dream or vision of their own.
In a different way I have spoken of working together in community and connection to enhance each other’s dreams and passions. One of the awarenesses that has recently come forward to me in my own journey is that I was not allowed to have dreams and passions. I was told that it did not matter, someone else’s would always be deemed more important to carry forward. I was taught to become an aid in making the other’s dreams reality, that they would always be of more value and worth than my own.
A natural consequence of this was a sort of directionless living on my own accord. Always seeking out another and ride on the coat tails of their dreams, telling myself I wanted what they wanted.
I still cannot tell you what it is that I even want, now that I am feeling about my own suffering. I do feel I still want to know what self love is, so that I may give love as well to another in a pure form. But what do I dream and desire in this life? What do I want to experience with my time here on earth- that is the vision I am attempting to describe that I feel I lack.
I have had many dreams as of late that show me feelings I wished were real in my awake life. The contrast is frankly too much some days, leaving me wishing I was back in bed dreaming my life away, carrying out those visions from there.
I take a moment to look around my life, reevaluate what I have done, remember what was for me. Though that list may be shorter than what I have done for others, it gives me hope. Hope that I can have a vision of my life to move towards. In this way I can take learnings of how to start fires for others, get their lives going and do it for me.
Its going to be agonizing to shift from doing for others before myself, its not about selfishness or ego- its about refining something far greater than that. The wounded healer of Chiron is conjunct this Moon phase for a reason: in healing these errors we can teach the loving way to allow everyone to hold a vision for themselves. Yes some of these dreams and visions will contradict each other- that is ok. As long as it is in harmony with love, free of denial and emotional numbness, who really cares what they are doing? Give them space to live out their dreams, and who knows maybe in that contrast those will be the people best able and capable of supporting you onward.
With eyes turned inward,
Humbly yours,
Stephany