Capricorn New Moon

Capricorn new moon on Dec 23, 2022 @ 3:16am MDT, with energies perfecting at 01degree Capricorn

This moon phase squares a freshly ingressed Jupiter in Aries, 00degrees and 16arch minutes. It’s that feeling of transitioning from one area of your life to the next, you haven’t quite adjusted to the environment in front of you. Thankfully you’ve been here before so you have some sense of what it is like to be here, and yet you also know you have not been here in long enough that you need to take stock of the details that may have changed since you were here last.

Not connected to this moon, though strongly in the mix is Mercury and Venus in Capricorn trine North node and Uranus in Taurus, and sextile to Neptune in Pisces.

Grandmother Moon, please share with me an aspect of my relationship within my soul that needs to become more aware during New Moon in Capricorn?

“I’m doing the best I can.”

My next feeling: but am I really?

That’s curious. I questioned myself of the feeling I’m doing my best. So what if I’m not?

At this point in my life I can reflect on a number of reasons as to why I’m not giving myself my best. And those reasons now feel like excuses.

I now wonder the point I am making to myself, and this seems it could go down a punishing track.

The point it seems is on responsibility, and honing in on what I am actually responsible for. This also includes what I am in control of with my actions.

Like all things responsibility has a set of beliefs we act from. Which also means there are likely false beliefs here that need cleaning up and learning what is in fact my responsibility. These two parts are a life long commitment as we make our way towards God’s love and coming to know what’s in truth and what is not.

I have come to believe many things around what giving my best is and what is my responsibility. Some of the more challenging features is what I can and cannot control. Is it a strong conviction? Am I doing something under a guise that I am responsible for them.

Honestly, this whole inquiry makes me feel squeamish. If you are as well, let’s join in a moment of being with that, stay honest with ourselves we would rather not have a look at it.

I reflect on what are my responsibilities:

My emotions (especially the emotions I would rather deny, this includes all projections I make as well), feelings, beliefs, even the soul injuries I have inherited from my ancestors

My actions

My Law of Attraction

My physical body, my spirit body, my soul

My contributions to my environment, what I do to the earth and how I live on the earth

There’s likely more I’m blocked to seeing- as is the point of bringing this topic up and back into my awareness.

When I look at this list and reflect on my reasons for not doing my best- I come to a moment of compassion and grace. That is already a lot to be in control of, and possibly hard to maintain while feeling out of control, or like my efforts don’t matter.

Take the environment for example. I want to love and live lovingly on our beautiful planet. And then I see what we all do collectively. I feel angry and thwarted in my efforts, like suddenly it doesn’t matter. In these moments I can see where my anger lives- and that goes against everything Capricorn, especially when squared with Aries. What you or I do is not dependant on what anyone else is doing.

But we have Pluto in the 27th degree of Capricorn, I can understand the anger and feelings of why bother. Yet, those are part of the Pluto lessons we are all learning- the meaning of responsibility and giving ourselves a why to bother about. Our why is the moral and integrity of every aspect of our lives. That’s our why. In New Moon fashion, these are the seeds we are planting. The intentions we are setting.

I have a prayer that I find emotionally illuminating in times of wondering where my responsibility lay in something.

It goes: God please help me take personal responsibility for this _______ situation I am currently facing. As with all intentions, we have to get specific with our prayers.

I feel in this moment after writing, being with Grandmother Moon, longing to be more open to what I deny then before I started, I realize that my guides and God feel my best is far more then I feel I’m capable of. The word capable and feeling of being believed in brings tears forward. This was a long writing of many blocks to land on two blocks that makes me stop right here- that I am capable of all the things I’m responsible for in my life, and that people who love me beyond measure believe in me. They believe in me to take action, feel emotions I would rather deny or pretend are not mine or real. Ok, a third block- that a way I shut down receiving love from my guides and god is to not take responsibility for my end of things. It’s how I push love away. How I push people away. Not even my soulmate can love me when I’m not taking responsibility. In these moments I can reject love by not giving my best.

Sunrise, with a winged friend greeting the day. Calgary, Alberta.
Photo: Stephany Steele

With Warm Hugs,

Stephany